“Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose” – Philippians 2:12
The bible says that when you become born again you take the identity of Christ Jesus [I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me – GALATIANS 2:20], but that was not the case for me. I did not know who I was, I lived in fear of both God and my parents, on the outside I pretended to perfect by doing good. But on the inside I was a mess and was not a peace with myself. So I was just living life aimlessly, no-one was there to guide me in this new walk. The books I read, never meant anything, the scriptures were not clear, going to church was by default because it was a must. So years went by living as an “unsaved born again Christian” that was my little secret. If I anyone would try to witness to me, I would be quick to say “no, I am born again, You and I are in the same boat donchu worry about me, I am good!” It was ALL LIES.
The enemy had his hands right round my neck and made me swim in my own pool of iniquities (lies, lust, envy, jealous, doubt, hatred, anger, selfish-ambitions, depression, self- condemnation, judgmental thoughts). Just because people did not see it, I thought I was fine. But deep down, I always felt a strong conviction that I was wrong and that I needed to repent again. I still wanted to know this God but I just did not know how to. I only prayed when I wanted something from God. During high school I was an on&off christian, I wanted the best of both worlds and thought I could maneuver my life through both.
I was trying to figure it all out. Sometimes I would hear these sermons and have a strong conviction that this is me being preached here and would tell myself, ” yes I need to change” but when the Pastor would call out for re-dedication or a prayer of repentance (to be born again, again). My pride got the good of me cause I would tell myself “you got born again at 12, sit yourself down, you aint going anywhere, you are fine”. Little did I know it was the enemy whispering too me. Between my high school and varsity life a lot of deliverance happened in my life. A war I was not aware of was be fought on my behalf, the devil wanted me but GOD had claimed me already.
‘I assure you and most solemnly say to you, everyone who practices sin habitually is a slave of sin.Now the slave does not remain in a household forever; the son [of the master] does remain forever.So if the Son makes you free, then you are unquestionably free.” – John 8:34-36
Early 2015 January, just after graduating the previous year, reality struck. I was jobless, no more friends to pretend life with, I discovered I had nothing and my life was so empty. That is when I made the CHOICE, I needed JESUS CHRIST. I needed him to sort my life once and for all. It all began with an intense 10 days of prayer and fasting, crying, pleading with God and re-dedicating my life to him. It was one of the best experiences of my life, I genuinely felt a new birth taking place and a new identity clothing me. I was becoming more aware of what I needed in my life, taking responsibility of my life with God as my everything. I got baptized through immersion that same year, another best day of my life. I began plugging into church programs, one particular program that changed my life was the NEW LIFE COVENANT CHURCH ESTHER`S ACADEMY. It was through this academy that I got the revelation that I am a writer one of my God-given gifts the devil never wanted me to know. And the following year – 2016, is when I started my BLOG, one of the best decisions of my life.
The Christian walk is beyond amazing, there is PEACE, JOY and HOPE that is unexplainable. I will be honest with you, I am still work-in-progress, I am human, I am not perfect, I fall but I still get back up again by the Grace of God. And I do not regret this great CHOICE I made. I LOVE GOD so much, he has been so faithful in my life( literally crying) when I did not deserve it, he poured his mercies on me. He has surrounded me with an amazing support system, my family, my pastors, my prayer warrior friends and mind-blowing divine helpers. I know its only the beginning cause the best is yet to come.
That being said, it would be foolish of me to only want to enjoy this life alone. I want you, yes you reading this! If you have not given your life to Christ, to make the decision right now. If my testimony is relatable or maybe it encouraged you to take a step forward. Please by all means take the action, get to know this GOD and the best part let him just change your life for the best! If you are ready, please with a loud excited voice, pray this prayer with me in faith:
THE BELIEVERS PRAYER
Lord Jesus Christ, I want to know you personally. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life to you and ask you to come in as my Savior and Lord. Take control of my life. Thank you for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Make me the kind of person you want me to be. AMEN
Congratulations to you, you have made the best decision ever. Being born again is a process, so you will need guidance every step of the way. Something I had to discover alone, lucky you, you are not going to be lonely on this journey. I ask of you to get plugged in a bible-believing church close to you or look for a pastor or an evangelist that can help you. I am here to pray with you, just comment below and I will holla back!
Thank you so much for reading❤